Iridescent

Raining now with especially cold temperature in the office. Feeling so sleepy and yet had to endure with the sleepiness until 5.30 p.m. when I get officially off work. Had to switch on the fan to blow away the filthy gas my colleague just gave out while walking pass my seat. I shall not complain about his naturally strong body scent. It’s normal if you walk pass and burp once or twice. If u keep walking pass me and just keep on burping, something is really wrong with your digestive system. Suggest that you go and consult the doctor about it.

Work has become more and more [un]bearable in some ways. Friends around me are supportive with my decision which I had made since Day 1 but had been pushed back due to financial reasons. Now I have more financial reasons to stay on due to me brand-chasing purchases and gym membership. Not forgetting that I have to save up for my DSLR (Nikon D5100 or Canon 550D/600D) purchase and dream holiday. Estimate that I can pay-back one of my purchases fully by end of January 2012 with my 30% bonus, angbao money & salary. Gym membership had to be paid in monthly installments. But well, if I get the money, I will pay-back in full as well. 

Speaking of gym membership, since I joined on 21 October 2011, I must say that I had been attending the BodyCombat classes which I really enjoy quite religiously. At times when I get frustrated or if I skip the class for a few days, I will actually ‘miss’ the class. The feeling that the only thing you have to do is just to kick, throw punches and you will sweat! The instructors were good except for one whom I shall name him Mr Anime.

Okay. So by now, I think all of my close friends would have known that due to work stress, I am down with a condition known as Alopecia Areata which is commonly called patch baldness. I was feeling really down for the first few months when the areas of baldness were discovered. I consulted my GP, went to see a unauthorized sinseh (who burnt my scalp with 灯芯 and made me cry like a baby which in turned made me turn ‘rebellious’ and refused to speak to my parents for the next couple of days) and finally, Dr Chio from NSC who diagnosed that my condition was quite serious and I had to go through the steroid injections for my baldness. Which is by the way, was super uncomfortable and painful. I spent time, concealing my baldness and lost all the confidence in myself and meeting others. Though I tried putting up a stronger front, deep down, I actually felt really sad and at some point I should say, depressed. I wondered what had I done wrong to make such kind of thing happen. So all the bad thoughts continued floating in my mind for sometime and I harbored random thoughts. Luckily, all theses while, friends around had been very supportive. Eventually those random thoughts disappeared and I just stopped thinking about how my life is. I thought of how I should or what I should do to make things better. It’s been 6 months since the first discovery of my patch baldness and I say my condition is pretty much settled now. New hair is growing well and I am sure with consistent workout, medicine & hair hygiene with stress control, I will recover well. With my thick and shiny black hair. And of course, the confident me. 

I shall end this post with the lyrics from Linkin Park’s song, Iridescent.

Enjoy folks!

When you were standing in the wake of devastation
when you were waiting on the edge of the unknown
with the cataclysm raining down, insides crying save me now
you were there and possibly alone.

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up all the failures all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.

And in the burst of light that blinded every angel
as if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
you felt the gravity of temper grace falling into empty space
no one there to catch you in their arms

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up all the failures all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.

(Multiple Voices)
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up all the failures all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go,

let it go
let it go
let it go
let it go

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up all the failures all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.