YES INDEED SO TOUGH!

I've finally asked and yet got ...

WHATEVER!!!

Depend on others, might as well depend on myself.


温岚 - 刺猬
最后一抹的微笑
在转身之后
我闭上眼哭了
仅存的一点点骄傲
华丽的外表终于丢掉
很彷徨很孤单 是寂寞或
悲惨 一个人该怎么办
像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上 一片无
声黑暗 心痛的大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象 哭吧

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上 一片无
声黑暗 心痛的大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还
傻 刺猬的坚强全都是假象
我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象 哭吧
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yeah!!!!

SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!!!

girl's best friend eh? hehehehehhehee....

and i saw this White Adidas Bag with Stars Pattern @ 313 Somerset store just now. it will cost me $89 if i really got that. but i dint. :(

kinda regret now though. but i guess the feeling will go away.

anyhows, Im veryyyyyyyyyy TIRED now!!!

shall zooooom off now... =p
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Random Fact #1 - I bought a new pink jacket from Esprit and whenever I wear that in class, the lecturer comes to me and as me to answer tutorial question. Its either she finds me bright and easy to spot or thought that I'm sleeping cause I always look down whenever I write in her class. The pose like sleeping lah!

Random Fact #2 - Today after class @ the bus stop, I saw this couple from my class standing together @ the shelter. When the bus reached the bus bay, the GUY rush straight to the front of the door leaving HIS GIRL behind squeezing with the other people who are trying to board the bus.

Random Fact #3 - I got weird stares and comments that I'm going horse-riding because I wore boots. However, people did compliment that my boots are nice.

Random Fact #4 - I got even more weird stares from people when I actually give way to the alighting passengers when I'm the first to board. Reason? People can't wait to get on the bus! I see no rush in rushing into boarding the bus when there's people trying to alight from the same door! Can't you just stand clear and let them alight first before boarding? Isn't that more efficient? Rather than boarding and have to squeeze here and there to let the person alight. USE YOUR BLARDY BRAIN LAH!

Random Fact #5 - I got "suan" by this particular guy in the other department on one of the early working days. I got a call from a uncle who speaks mandarin but I had to transfer his call to the correct department. So, I said told that guy that the uncle is "chinese-speaking". The guy answered, "I don't speak chinese." At that instance, I asked if he wanted me to help him or something. And guess what he said? "But I speak mandarin." I so wanted to ask him to F.off man! FYI, I did not laugh.

Alas~ I shall end randomly with this song which is currently re-playing in my mind.

叮当 - 猜不透

猜不透
你最近时好时坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
让试探为彼此的心 上了锁

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸 是真的 是热的

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已不想追究

越是在乎的人越是猜不透
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Busy with stuffs.

Outings, School, Assignments, Work.

I'm so tired out!

Will blog properly when I get the inspirations.

如果忽冷忽热的温柔是你的借口， 那我宁愿对你从没认真过。
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In case there's still people out there wanting to know how I think and feel now,

I'm okay.

Not as bad as yesterday.

Not as good as before this whole thing happened as well.

I have people asking me things which they think I should know very clearly by now. However, all I offered them was shock and more shocks.

Perhaps they are already accustomed to the way how our 'relationship' works.

And yes, I am still quite frustrated over the very fact that I am bothered by the way how someone who doesn't even realised that I'm so pissed with his SMS. YES he is totally unaware I think. Even after so long, I am still feeling frustrated.

WHY?

Because obviously this person doesn't know that what he had replied me is quite upsetting and can actually make someone turn like that. I reckon he doesn't even know that I will actually get agitated over something so minor.

I have been 'emoing' since that very day and it's getting from bad to worst.

I even avoided certain places so that I can 'detox'.

This is the longest period so far that I have allowed myself to sink into the darkness of emo'ness. I wonder how long more before I actually 'die' from this UNHEALTHY 'emoing'.

PS: Ms E, I'm definitely the last option which you have pointed out to me in your email. However, I think I am not going to slowly disappear. I am just going to run away. YES it took me that long to know what my true feelings were.
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